Bird (kjillane) wrote,

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Bedrest Sucks

I'm really bothered by the fact that I am not able to even purchase a sympathy card for my husband when he is obviously so sad. And it's really weird how some "friends" are so rude and insenstive about loss. My friend Leslie's grandmother died two days after Pete's. While she and I were talking she brought up a good point about how, with the death of an older person the general public are so insensitive and if they say anything at all often say assinine shit like, "Oh well, at least she led a nice looong life." Umm, yeah. It was still a PERSON who was INSTRUMENTAL in others LIVES and it still HURTS. Thanks for the hot tip though. I don't care if they were old! Some old people are more alive than the average 20 year old punk on the street. Most of them certainly contribute more to society, their families and the community at large.

...I don't know WTH I'm going with this. I'm going to stop it before I even get started. I guess I'm just equally hormonally infuriated and crushed by ... a lot of things ... right now. I guess I am just expecting too much. And that is definitely MY mistake.

On the otherhand, I finally recieved a letter of appology (more like a 10 word note-but still) from my old friend in Tahoe. It said one of her resolutions was not to take advantage of her friends anymore and she hoped she would recieve a picture of the baby when it arrived. Her note, any words at all after all these years, really meant a lot to me. And just when I had given up on her. I think that might be the key to a lot of things. Have no expectations, give up, let it all go. Only then can you be pleasantly surprised, right?

Our old dog Willy has been choking/barfing incessantly for about two hours straight now.

Outside it's raining and sunny at the same time right now...Isn't that appropriate?

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